Life in, life out

Well, so I finally have come to term with the fact that it wont be very soon until I get chatper 6 done, and then even forever until I get to Devan's pov. Cause I just can't think of anything. I had a friend who suggested working on LOAP but I decided against it cause I really need to focus on the last 13 days of school instead of my writing cause I'm really worried I might get a B in two of my classes now, the two that I really can't have a B in Chem and French cause if I get a B in those two classes I'll feel like I've just failed at life cause those are the ones I excel in, or at least the areas, you know? AT least I don't like the teacher in French, you know? Cause if I liked him in there the I would feel even worse, but the again I feel the same way with Mr. Hill cause I really like him and I don't want him thinking the best I can do is a B in his class esspecially since I might have him next year, of course I'll have my french teacher next year as well, but you know what, he really likes me cause I acutually pay attention in his class so I'm wondering whether that really matters?

Anyways, if anybody does dare to read this which I'd be surprised at cause I know that nobody has this on anything and none of you probably remember it's here so I'm really just talking to myself. Either way, who knows when I'll get another chapter written? I could go try... but I think nothing'll come of it cause I don't know what I want to do with it anymore. I mean, I know the direction I want it to go in, but like this part? totally not thought of, and I don't know how to make it sound right. I could get rid of it, but it's very useful and kinda needed to transistion to Devan's POV, I think... perhaps I should try another way? well, wich me luck cause I've just talked myself into trying it. woooo!