Home... where art thou?

Today's idea of home is so messed up. I mean, really though, they say home is where the heart is, so doesn't that mean it's with somebody that you love? And if that's so, how do you call where you live your home? Meh, but that's all beside the point. Here's the real problem:

I can't stop writing poems! I churned out a short story yesterday, but I mean, c'mon! Why can't I write ToN? Evey time I pull it up, I end up opening up my poems and writing in there! Or I'm in school and I try to write some stuff, and i end up scrapping it and writing a poem instead! or 7! I haven't posted any of them yet, but never fear.... they shall when I finally decide to...

Other than that life is hectic, but let's leave that alone cause I'm tired of thinking about it. Maybe that's why I'm so tired, I've been thinking about it all so much. Meh.. I'll figure something out with ToN soon... hopefully....

Yet another...

I have the fullest week ahead of me, it ain't funny. Not only do I have friday to miss for Mexico, I also am missing a lot of my other classes throughout the week in order to do other things the school wants me to do. I have make-up assignments coming out of my ears, a book to read, essay to write, timeline to create, book to write, don't mind me if I just explode.

Yet, admist all this work I have to do, I'm realizing that all I want to do is to go to Mexico. Why? Cause I can't do anything there, NOTHING. It's impossible to do my homework, there's no way I'd take anything for school down there, I'd proabably lose it. So, I'm sitting here, contemplating how to do my outline for said essay, and writing this. The only thing I can do down in Mexico that I can take back with me (that doesn't have to do with the body mind and spirit that is) is my writing. Lately I've been having trouble focusing, so much is going on around me. But I hope that this week I can finsih chapter five of ToN, and then next week get outa Sage's POV. How long that'll take is something I've yet to answer, but here it goes!

LoaP... I satarted to write in again, but since I've got so much romance in ToN, I'm losing the need for it. I'm thinking of putting it on hiatus and taking the Observer back out again as my back up plan, but until I need said back up plan, I won't worry about it. The only thing is is that I'm wary of letting people see the Observer, cause it's kinda jumpy and sporatic. So... let's just say ToN is the only official workage in the writing area right now, besides my essay, that I'm going to go write right now!

Writing, Mexico, and Sleep Deprivation (dangerous combo...)

Yeah, I so didn't get chapter 5 done. I would say it's close to halfway, maybe a little over it, but I have no idea. Things seem to enjoy dragging themselves out, so I could be completely wrong. I did notice though, that having somebody edit it, and then going over the edits for days on end, seems to make me keep up with writing, cause it's always fresh in my mind. Yet, I've also found that talking to people, and reading certainly take away from a creative drive, and I mean by a lot. Doing something that isn't using that burst of ideas litterally is very draining, of it, as well as me in general, cause all I wanna think about is writing, yet I have to think about English, or Math, or Chem, or French, etc. And it ends up driving me nuts. So don't be surprised if I start to suddenly disappear a lot more than I used to on Friday's and such, I've decided I need time to work upon my story as well.

I did get an iPod yesterday, early for my 16th birthday. It's rather fun to play around with, and it shall be very useful on the way down to Mexico, as well as going back up. Now for those of who are going, "Wait.. Mexico? Since when are you going to Mexico??" Well, basically it's a mission trip down to Ensenada. If that's spelled right, go me. Anyways, it's during spring break, so yes, I have to give that week of break up. Not only that, I have to miss the friday before so that I can ride the bus down to San Diego, for Saturday we go into Mexico and get settled. Sunday we go to our respective churches, Monday starts the official VBS part, we have 4 whole days there, friday we pack up, and head all the way home, getting there at about.. ohh 12am-2am. And that's not including the 20 minute drive home. So... that week I won't be doing much more than sleeping, eating, going to the bathroom, and focusing on the haze of spanish words whirling around me at the site. They do speak english at base camp, but I mean, you're in MEXICO they still call the bathroom a banyo(with the accent, yes) and say Hola all the time, and they wake us up with blasting music... and the place where breakfast is is up this insanely steep and huge hill that you could seriously injure yourself if you fell down, and feels like you could at any moment. Oh! And the tacos... I love La Sierra, best tacos ever. Completely authentic, and it even passes Azusa's regulations to allow us to "officially" eat there. Not that we didn't before the approved it.

And yeah. That's where I finish and probably wander off to do sleep. Good luck you other authors...!